tormented by sordid thoughts,
an aching tooth –
I don’t even get to sleep nights anymore.
at least when I used to get high
I used to get some relief
some of the time,
now I’m at the mercy of the wind
tied to a world I often hate
by bonds that I dare not break,
for moments of peace and calm
amidst stormy seas
is it worth it
for those brief moments of bliss?
where would I be
if I was not?