we might not look at
you the same way we used to
we might squint our
eyes a bit more in confusion,
furrow our brows
and ask more
questions,
be unable to
understand your answers
sometimes it might
hurt you to know
that we don’t
recognize you
or seem to have
forgotten who you are
please don’t be too
sad –
we have not forgotten
the same people who
loved you your entire life
still love you –
we still care as much
as we ever did,
even if we are unable
to show it,
it still warms our
hearts to see you,
to hear your voice,
even if our brains won’t
let us acknowledge it
you might think that
you’ve already lost us
but you haven’t.
we are still here.
we are still here,
behind the waves of
confusion,
the disorientation,
the utter impossibility
to make sense of it all,
we are here,
still beings inside
these shells,
still feeling, still
experiencing the world,
if only in different
ways than we have before,
still seeking your
love and companionship
despite everything
that’s happening to us,
still listening for
your words
even if we don’t seem
to be able to comprehend them
and we know it’s hard
for you to be with us like this,
we know it hurts for
you to see your mothers, your fathers,
grandparents,
husbands, wives, aunts and uncles,
to see your heroes
deteriorate before your eyes;
we wish that it didn’t
have to be this way,
but it is;
do not feel guilty for
your pain,
do not be ashamed of us
or of your sadness –
nobody expected things
to turn out this way
but here we are –
you, us
still here
still living in the
face of an insidious disease,
still living through
it a day at a time
we are still here
waiting for you and
the only thing that some of us can still understand at all:
love
we still understand
your love
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