tormented by sordid
thoughts,
childhood memories,
an aching tooth –
I don’t even get to
sleep nights anymore.
at least when I used
to get high
I used to get some
relief
some of the time,
now I’m at the mercy
of the wind
tied to a world I
often hate
by bonds that I dare
not break,
for moments of peace
and calm
amidst stormy seas
is it worth it
for those brief
moments of bliss?
where would I be
if I was not?