Saturday, December 19, 2020

2020

 

Adieu

to a bastard of a year

whose father was no father at all

but a diaper they attempted to clean with a dishrag

and strapped to a mannequin

with the voicebox of a 10-year-old

whose mother did not protect him—

was perhaps unable to do so—

from the ills of the world.

 

Farewell

to another year of black throats crushed,

suffocated for all to see,

of faces scraped against concrete,

shot in their beds or left to rot in cells,

but also of those who balled their fists,

refused to be silent and took to streets,

who organized behind the scenes,

took to the ballot boxes and screamed.

 

Good riddance

to hordes of gnashing teeth between gingivitis-laden gums,

Whopper guts and confederate flags,

Boogaloo boys with happy trigger fingers

who comforted themselves with silky lies,

who bathed their skin in the oils of dead whale calves

and toasted Coors Lights as they downed their fill

of fascist tripe, Mussolinian entrails,

and thought they did it all in the name of the Lord.

 

Goodbye (but not quite yet)

to strangers seen as threats (more than usually),

whose very breath, a dangerous vector,

to third-world-country mills of polypropylene masks

that some viewed as signs of oppression,

that some clung to in hopes of staying safe,

that some scoffed at while their grandparents died,

that became an indicator of whose gaze extended beyond

the clippings of their own toenails

and whose was mired in solipsism that could not permit

of empathy to break their autistic fever-dreams.

 

(and hopefully) A tentative hello

to commutes to work that no longer need to exist,

to painfully waking up to social responsibility,

to digging our leaders’ heads out of the oil-sands,

to clean drinking water in Flint and on indigenous reserves,

to no longer tolerating that which can be changed,

to forgoing our opiates in the name of tears

that need to shed aloud.






Monday, June 1, 2020

Black Lives Matter



As I sit here comfortably in my home in one of the more affluent regions of the planet, I nonetheless experience a combination of sadness, anger, disgust, and fear in response to what is happening in the world. Particularly, I feel overwhelming sadness for Black people in the United States, not just for the recent murder of George Floyd by the police, but for what his death represents: literally centuries of oppression, persecution, and murder of Black people in America. 

As I peer down at my hands, my fingers typing away, I am aware that the pigmentation in my skin would fit with the label of “white” or “Caucasian,” and I question if I should even be speaking on recent events. On the one hand, I’d rather boost the messages of leaders within the Black community (which I do whenever I see the opportunity) than add my own voice. On the other hand, I am bombarded with messages that say “silence is complicity,” and being a descendant of Holocaust survivors (only two generations removed), I feel the need to write in order to express something:


When I fully allow myself to contemplate the horror that is racism, that a human being could be reduced to an object of scorn because of the coding of their skin pigmentation by nothing more than genetic chance, and that this is the basis upon which they could be murdered, I am deeply horrified. I am at first filled with immense sadness, because although I am not a person of colour, I am a human being that can empathize with other human beings. I don’t know what it’s like to be the target of anti-Black racism, but I do know what it’s like to have hatred unfairly projected upon me and as a result be a target of violence. It’s a horrible, terrible, and potentially traumatic experience. What I don’t know is what it’s like to live with the threat of that sort of violence every single day because of my appearance. Not having that experience on a daily basis is part of what is meant by the term “white privilege.” And the fact that there are literally millions of people living society every single day with this experience fills me with despair.
 
After the sadness comes the anger. I am enraged that we live in a world in which we allow these events to happen. I say “we” because we truly are one species, one human race, and as such we bear a collective responsibility for our fates. The reality of our interconnectedness becomes clearer to me with each passing day. I am angry that those in positions of power do not put fixing this problem at the top of their list of priorities. Not only that, but in the year 2020, the president of the United States literally repeats the same phrases as those used by racist politicians and police chiefs in Jim Crow South in the 1960’s – and he doesn’t seem to see anything wrong with it. 


The anti-Black racists have not disappeared. The KKK has not disappeared. They are employed in government, the media, the military, and police departments. Instead of openly calling black people “n*ggers,” they call them “thugs” – this is the new codeword that they think they can get away with. It is not a priority for them to address the systemic issues that perpetuate racism because in order to do so they would have to own the darkness within them – the darkness that they have projected onto Black people. This darkness is what Carl Jung called “the shadow” – and for racists, it involves the rejection of feared (and possibly traumatized) aspects of their own humanity. This suppression results in their fear, rage, and disgust (which would be more appropriately directed at the racist parts of themselves) being ignorantly projected onto people of colour. 
 

"A man who is unconscious of himself acts in a blind, instinctive way and is in addition fooled by all the illusions that arise when he sees everything that he is not conscious of in himself coming to meet him from outside as projections upon his neighbour."

-Carl Jung, “The Philosophical Tree” (1945). In CW 13: Alchemical Studies. P.335


After the sadness and anger, comes the disgust and the fear. I am disgusted when I see pictures and videos of white cops killing unarmed Black men with impunity while bystanders watch and film. I am afraid at the lack of political will and conviction among elected officials to draw a firm line in the sand and declare that these atrocities are not allowed to happen anymore. And I can’t help but feel helpless. 

How am I supposed to make a difference in all of this? Does sitting here typing out my thoughts and feelings and then posting it online actually do anything? Will anyone who needs to read this actually read this and if they do will it make even the tiniest bit of difference in addressing the enormity of the problem of anti-Black racism? The cynical side of me says, “probably not,” and the truth is I have no idea. Maybe this is just an attempt to help myself process what I am seeing and reading about online. Maybe it’s an attempt to address the assertion that “silence is complicity” and add my voice to the growing number of people who refuse to stay silent. Maybe it’s an attempt to heed the wisdom of calls to action from far greater people than myself. 


Regardless, I can think, I can feel, I can write – and so I write. When and where I see opportunities to speak out or to act, I will do so. To whatever extent possible, I will do my best to be part of the solution and not part of the problem. Black Lives Matter. Taking a stand for the basic human rights of all human beings matters. Let’s all of us, please, take these turbulent days as opportunities to make this world better than it’s been thus far.